Life of a Futon Revolutionist

Because I am the clear and articulate girl that I am

2008-08-19T05:20:00.001-04:00

FUCK FUCK FUCKITY FUCK FUCK SHIT.

I really want to crawl back into bed now. My head hurts.

Because someone complained that I never updated this...

2008-08-17T19:57:00.000-04:00

It’s easy to slip back into awkward phases
Tongue tied days of adolescence
Writing wishful poetry along margin lines
So afraid to make a move
Would it be too forward to reach for your hand
Or dance a while on the bed
I swear there’s a million things I would do
You’d only have to ask

*Happy now?*

On a roll today

2008-05-14T19:53:00.003-04:00

Checklist for this Summer

*Sign up for ballroom dancing classes (starts in September)
*Go to the beach
*Build a massive fort
*RIVER HOUSE!!!!
*Get over fear of wearing bikini in public
*Sign up for fall classes
*Go to a concert
*Take pictures in a photo booth
*Submit a short story to..whoever will take it

2008-05-14T17:43:00.004-04:00

Three things I find attractive on a man: (I'm assuming by saying "on" this means clothing) ties, button down shirts, fedoras
Three things I can't stand to touch: Raw meat, dirty dishes, babies (I'm sooo uncomfortable handling children)
Three things I want to learn: A new language, to dance, to be a better writer
Three things I wished I'd never learned/had to learn: That people can be creepy, fairytales aren't real, and sometimes the good die young
Three things I want right now: A good movie, a new pair of headphones, and a certain someone to cuddle and watch the movie with me
Three things I want out of life: Success, good times, and good people

Ba da ba da dum dum

2008-05-14T15:38:00.003-04:00

I'm not a dancer
All these leaps and turns
Trying to keep in time
I feel a little off kilter
Aware of how absurd I look
In the spotlight.

I believe Death Cab for Cutie has finally grown on me.

Still here

2008-05-04T20:54:00.002-04:00

Haunting beaches, gray haze waves.

Weddings are boring when the bar isn't open.

Retail kills me, but a new job starts soon.

Searching for dogmen in the woods behind my house.

Wondering if tomorrow would be a good day for a road trip.

I'll have a better post when I'm coherent.

Deviant Art "Rap"

2008-04-23T07:54:00.002-04:00

Deviant Art
You started out so pure
A place for art, photography, comics, and more
But use the browse feature and you'll see
The darker side to this story
Anime is cool don't get me wrong
But did I really need to see Naruto in a thong?
Cloud and Squall as lovers? Oh shit
I haven't even gotten to the second page yet
Anatomically correct doesn't apply to furries
Double Ds with a 20 waist, not even funny
Silly kid repties can't have boobs
Mammory glands are for mammals fool
Photography, I don't mean to be smart
But a picture of you in the bathroom isn't high art
Headshots, angles, mirrors galore
Big girls trying hard to look a size four
But don't get me wrong, there's some gems among the bile
Some artists of caliber in this short bus pile
Just keep your eyes sharp, and gag reflex down
And hope these kids don't run the site in the ground.

Springtime

2008-04-11T11:36:00.001-04:00

Sunshine, light breezes
Air smells of nature, new
Jump in a puddle.

I'm so going to be made fun of for this

2008-04-11T11:31:00.002-04:00

To win me over
Swords are a girl's best friend
Video game matches.

Riot

2008-03-28T20:50:00.002-04:00

Helter Skelter- Across the Universe OST
Disorder and Dissarray- Rancid (And Out Come The Wolves)
Baby, I'm An Anarchist - Against Me! (Reinventing Axel Rose)
The Other Side of the Crash/Over and Out (of Control)- Thursday (A City by the Light Divided)
God Is Going to Get Sick of Me - Aberdeen City (The Freezing Atlantic)
A Pistol for Paddy Garcia - The Pogues (Rum, Sodomy, and The Lash)

Left and Leaving

2008-03-28T20:46:00.000-04:00

Eleven
Left to wait
Be safe love

The result of having Horrorpops, Mad Marge, and Nekromantix on repeat

2008-03-26T08:58:00.002-04:00

Late night, detour
Took a stroll through the cemetary
I could feel something watching
Should have took the long way
Oh but how could I have known
That when you ate my brain
You'd take my heart too
Now we walk hand in hand
Chasing teenagers through the park
You smell of graveyard dust
And your clothes are never tidy
We'll never go for dinner and a movie
But I don't care
Six feet under for eternity
Just my zombie boyfriend and me.

Temp Service Blues (Sung to the tune of Oh! Darling by the Beatles)

2008-03-26T08:54:00.002-04:00

Oh Starbucks
Please believe me
When I said I'd work the 4 a.m. shift
Please believe me
I'd be a great employee
This temp thing
Isn't working out like it should
Oh Starbucks
When you didn't call yesterday
I nearly broke down and cried
I'm tired of rejection
so give me a goddamned job

Bad Sarah!

2008-03-24T07:31:00.003-04:00

Uhhhh yeah I sort of forgot about this thing until I got an email from my site traffic tracker. >.< I don't really have anything to post, been working on a book so poetry is taking a backseat. Later I'll post like the first chapter. Off topic but HOLY FUCKING SHIT I JUST SAW THE TRAILER FOR FINAL FANTASY 7 CRISIS CORE...WHY MUST YOU BE FOR PSP????!!!!! WHO FUCKING OWNS A PSP?! NO ONE BECAUSE IT SUCKS. DAMN YOU SONY...DAMN YOU! *cough*

Not sure about this one, but I'll post it anyway

2008-03-12T22:21:00.002-04:00

She was just a little girl, but no
You had to have what wasn’t yours
Games played in the dark
Slip off the dress, shh don’t tell
The consequence will be more severe
Than if the truth were to leak
But who would believe
Such a fanciful girl anyway
Another story, just another lie
That girl’s imagination
Gets wilder everyday
She grows more withdrawn everyday
Memories fade, or they just get pushed away
Kept aside for the sake of survival
Locks can rust and break
Innocence can be forfeited for truth
It's harder to reclaim
What never should have been taken

Waiting for Charming

2008-03-11T22:04:00.000-04:00

I chased a rabbit down a hole
Saw the beauty in a beast
Broke the glass slipper
Ate a poisoned apple, fell asleep
For a hundred years
Gave up my voice
To be part of your world
And while some may be content
With waiting for Charming
I'll slay my own dragons
Give those hags a taste of their apples
Charge forth on a white horse
And save my prince
From damsels in distress
I'm a new kind of princess
A little rough around the edges
But I got a good heart
Perfect, polished fantasy, well
It just doesn't suit me
It's out of style anyway
Give me a prince with a few scars
Because face it
Waiting for Charming
Just isn't charming anymore.

A haiku that sounds more cryptic than it is

2008-03-11T22:02:00.000-04:00

Ticking clock
Forever waiting
No patience

Some silly little thing to know me better

2008-03-09T18:03:00.000-04:00

10 Random Things About Me
-When I was young I wanted to be an animator
-I'm painfully shy at first, but once I'm comfortable I'm a total goof
-If I wasn't a writer, I would be a musician. I don't think I could live without creating art of some sort
-Red meat literally makes me sick to my stomach
-I used to be a pescatarian, but one day I ate chicken and it was over for me
-Japanese food is love
-I have a knack for finding bizarre things no one notices
-My digital camera, ipod, and current book go wherever I go
-I am very easy to amuse
-Dark chocolate is my weakness

9 Ways to Win My Heart
-Mixtapes
-Putting up with all my craziness. Living room forts anyone?
-Taking some enjoyment in my hobbies, but have your own interests too
-Cuddling
-Being open about your feelings. Let me hear you say it once in a while
-Letters, or spontaneous sweet text messages will do
-Taking me out for random adventures
-Let me have a shoulder to cry on when I need it, sometimes I just want to vent
-Baked goods. Bring me a cupcake and I will melt into a puddle of Sarah. Bonus points if you made it yourself

8 Things I Want to Do Before I Die
-Travel to Japan, Europe, New Zealand, and wherever else my heart desires
-Write a novel and have it published
-Go to New York and Boston
-Learn to Dance
-Take Fencing lessons
-Write a screenplay that wins an Oscar, or at least gets nominated
-Take over the world
-Be able to speak three languages

7 Ways to Annoy Me
-Choosing to be ignorant. Fucking educate yourself
-Rudeness. Please to be giving courtesy kthanxbai
-Telling me I'm too skinny. Size three was normal last time I checked
-Always having to be right. I will argue with you until you give in or get pissed.
-Pretentious fuckers. Why is our generation stuck up our own goddamn asses?
-Bible thumpers. It's cool you're into Jesus, but shoving religion down my throat leaves nothing but a salty aftertaste and the urge to scream "Hail Satan!"
-Telling me I can't do something. I'm going to do it anyway, so just save your breath.

6 Things That I Believe In
-Being true to yourself
-Love
-Protecting the environment
-Second chances
-Art
-Fairies

5 Things That I'm Afraid Of
-Sharks
-Failure
-Heights
-Never finishing college
-Giving myself completely to another person and getting hurt

4 Favorite Items In My House
-My ipod, Jinx
-My very large book collection
-My computer
-My new leopard print coat

3 Things I Do Everyday
-Sleep
-Eat
-Sing

2 Things I Want to Do Right Now
-Get a tattoo
-Go to a show

1 Person I Want to See Right Now
-A certain Marine who's shipping off in two months. Though at the moment I don't know what I'd do first, punch him in the face for not making time to see me, or kiss him because I miss being with him terribly.

Plea From a Cat Named Virtue (Like the Weakerthans Song)

2008-03-07T19:46:00.002-05:00

If there's anyone still up there
Spirits or gods, a sympathetic fairy
Is this what you had in mind?
I'm trying to reach for compassion, love
Fairy tale lessons read to us so long ago
Where's this happily ever after?
Have we forgotten how to be
Like real human beings
The world wants no part, just turn a cheek
Frightened young mothers who can't afford meds
Boys sleeping on park benches
Broken homes that produce broken people
Families too poor to afford bread
I've befriended them all
And the fortunate, they still want more
Sending sons and daughters, lovers, friends
Off to fight an oil war
Religion is no longer a comfort, it's a weapon
We'll all be dead before we find out who's right
Does it really matter?
Nirvana, Heaven, The Other Side
We're all looking for a better place
Maybe we should stop looking
And make use of what we have.

A Mix for Nighttime

2008-03-05T16:20:00.000-05:00

Get Ur Freak On - Eels (Meet the Eels)
Tranquilize - The Killers ft. Lou Reed (Sawdust)
Cottonwool - Lamb (Best Kept Secrets)
Bachelorette- Bjork (Best of Bjork)
The Wretched - Nine Inch Nails (The Fragile-Left)
Devil With The Black Dress On - Jack Off Jill (Sexless Demons and Scars)
Call Call - The Faint (Blank Wave Arcade)
10.15 Saturday Night - The Cure (Three Imaginary Boys)

Meh

2008-03-05T14:13:00.000-05:00

Sorry for the lack of proper updatage. Things have been kind of weird for me lately. Here's something on the spot just to tide you over.

There once was a dread pirate named Sarah
Who wished the world was more fair-a
So she pissed and she moaned
Her friends she did phone
Grabbed a bottle of Jack
Punched a wall, scared her cat
Put on her ipod and felt a millions times better.

Haiku

2008-02-29T11:20:00.000-05:00

A haiku
Very random poetry
Marshmallow

Ice

2008-02-29T11:14:00.000-05:00

Glittering, pearlescent
The leftovers of a winter storm
A tenative foot forward
I don't fall
So I take another step
And land on my ass.

The Show

2008-02-29T11:04:00.000-05:00

I watched you dance like there was nothing worth savoring anymore
The studs on your wrists and belt under the spotlight, shining
A badge of your I don't give a fuck status
The low thrum of the bass guitar strung out, screamed to me
Everything you tried so hard to lock inside, tales of deadbeat daddies
And mothers who just gave up, of nights you couldn't remember
And losing your virginity to a whore old enough to be
Your unwed teenage mother
It was then I noticed how you seemed to tilt your head ever so slightly
So that I was in your direct point of view, unwavering, unafraid, charging into
Your territory with no apologies, no shame, and the burning desire for you
To notice I was wearing your favorite necklace, the one with the wooden beads
Standing in the corner, the object of your new superficial affections, I knew
She saw me, and I knew why she dragged you away after the show
Refusing all offers to catch up, and maybe buy you a drink for old times sake
Because I really miss talking to you, no, jealousy dictated the motions of her
Body across the floor in front of me, so that no matter what I could not
See you walking away, and maybe that's better for me because I'm
So used to watching you leave and how could
You pick that naive little girl over me, but that's just me being bitter
And I digress, cynicism was never my best characteristic
So I left the show alone, and hoped next time you would be too

Ashton (written waaay back in highschool)

2008-02-29T10:54:00.000-05:00

You twirl your hair with a smile
And say "I think I'll change my style"
I'm tired of being a punk rock queen
That trend has become so obscene
I think I will be a skater instead
I'll chop off my hair
And wear the right clothes
The shittier I look
The less everyone knows
I'm a liar, imposter
Troublemaker and slut
I will find a boy in a band
And say "I'm your biggest fan"
I will buy a new drumset
Just to impress
Piss off his girlfriend
And cause a huge mess
I love him this week
He hates me forever
But I'm finished with my little endeavor
This skater thing is so boring
I think I'll be goth instead

A Mix For Letting Someone Know You Love Them Without Saying It

2008-02-29T10:49:00.001-05:00

Fallen Snow - Au Revoir Simone (The Bird of Music)
Take Me Anywhere - Tegan and Sara (So Jealous)
First Day of My Life - Bright Eyes (I'm Wide Awake It's Morning)
Handle With Care - Jenny Lewis with the Watson Twins (Rabbit Furcoat)
The Book of Right-On - Joanna Newsom (The Milk-Eyed Mender)
Trying Too Hard - Love is All (Nine Times That Same Song)
P.S. You Rock My World - Eels (Electro-Shock Blues)
Anyone Else But You - Michael Cera and Ellen Paige (Juno Soundtrack)

A Mix to Dance In Your Underwear To

2008-02-29T10:45:00.000-05:00

Entertain - Sleater-Kinney (The Woods)
Busy Doing Nothing - Love is All (Nine Times That Same Song)
I Was Born (A Unicorn) - The Unicorns (Who Will Cut Our Hair When We're Gone)
Dashboard - Modest Mouse (We Were Dead Before the Ship Even Sank)
Kiss You Off - Scissor Sisters (Ta-Dah)
North American Scum - LCD Soundsystem (The Sound of Silver)
Lollipop - Mika (Life in Cartoon Motion)

My attempt at an older style

2008-02-27T17:39:00.000-05:00

Cool November wind, ever reminder of winter around the corner
Stir up the leaves from a surface grave and dance
Oh dance with me upon the windowsill
We watch young lovers pass below and wonder do they see us?
My phantom friend lean in - kiss me quick!
Winter is fast approaching and you will be gone
Before we say goodbye, goodnight let us stroll across the midnight grounds
Roll and tumble along the grassy hill
What's that? Someone's coming - kiss me quick!
Winter is fast approaching and you will be gone.
December falling, a pale white interloper
Intruding on my autumnal reverie
I embraced a frozen figure; it left me hollow
And so I yearned for the warmth of a fire
The door was barred - I was left to wander
Lost among the silent beauty of the evening
Yet in the distance a song I heard
A lonesome sparrow, oh heart rejoice!
The amethyst dawn of spring is near.
Oh gentle morning, mild dawn
Awaken me with coaxing warmth
The smell of life surrounds the body
Weary with travel, heartsick with the cold
Of a winter's unforgiving hold
The promise of a new beginning - to make things right
Baptized in the dew of springtime
Under a golden blanket I lay
Dreaming of the sparrow's song
Which brought me to a newfound love.

To An Ex

2008-02-27T17:37:00.000-05:00

You'll allow me to wear sneakers and jeans
As long as I shut up, smile and
Keep the fucking house clean
I'm too angry, you said
Not angry, just jaded
In truth the world is
A fantastic place
But it's hard to keep a grin
When you're screaming in my face
Normal girls always put out
For their boyfriends
They know their place
No, normal girls fight back
After being raped, and
Normal boys don't hurt their girlfriends
After discovering her razor play
So I'll kick and scream
Read all the wrong books
Like all the wrong t.v.
I'll reject your idea of femininity
And when they askI'll be proud to say
I'm not your kind of woman

To Someone Who May Never Read This

2008-02-27T17:32:00.000-05:00

One summer day, years ago
You went out walking in the rain
Intrigued I stole glances
While idle pratter from another
Slowly faded in the background
I wanted to join you
To know more of this strange charming boy
Summer faded, as did you
Autumn seemed a little colder
It would be years before we'd meet again
No longer a boy
Though you still loved to play
I dove back into the game
I reached for heart, you for flesh
Frustration pushed me into another
Still looking back
Waiting to see you reach for me
Morals compromised
Hearts broken
In the months following our confessions
But I meant it then
As I do now
If you were walking in the rain
I'd be right beside you

She Wolf

2008-02-27T17:30:00.000-05:00

Little red watch your step
I'm the wolf at your door
My what big teeth
My what big eyes
Don't let the sheepskin decieve
I'm going to swallow you whole
Little red, little red
Hear them whisper
They say I lie
Don't trust the wolf
She'll eat you alive.

Something Old

2008-02-27T17:28:00.000-05:00

Too long I've spent
Trying to erase
Your face, your touch, your voice
I'll keep you in diner trips
Living room forts
Arguments about soul stealing dogs
But never forget the nights
When I cried without comfort
Felt inadequite, even stupid
From your verbal beatings
So I may never
Make the mistake of thinking
I need you back

No New Messages

2008-02-27T17:27:00.000-05:00

All the love in the air
Makes me sentimental
I check my phone
And sigh when I see
"No new messages"

Black Roses

2008-02-27T17:26:00.000-05:00

A bouquet of black silk roses
Convieniently within eye's view on a shelf
Serves as a constant reminder
And the perfect catalyst
For nightly terrors
In which I play the assassin
To each new piece of arm candy
You dare bring before me
Or is it really myself
What you wanted me to be
Drowned, beaten, hacked into bits
If only I wasn't so fond
Of those damned roses
I might get a decent night's sleep

The Hungry Girl Contemplates a Cupcake

2008-02-27T17:24:00.000-05:00

Dark moist
Ever tempting
Underneath pink swirls so soft
Stop, no, I must not
Indulge this new love affair
Sugar, butter, eggs
How dare you entice me
With empty promises
Empty calories
Oh fuck it
One taste won't hurt
Except when I find
We're all out of milk

Inarticulation

2008-02-27T17:21:00.000-05:00

I dreamed one night
I was a pirate
Stole your heart
Found some treasure
Planned to make a run
For warmer weather
Maybe I'm more impossible
Than I had hoped to be
But you'll never find
A more honest liar than me
I listen to alot of indie rock
Really not a mopy kind of goth
Sweetie you're my kind of cute
The kind of boy you give mixtapes to
And wonder if the subtext
May be too sincere
I want to dance in the rain
Go for coffee, and spend a day
Making up for all the time
We never got to cuddle
So call me when you're free
I'll be there and maybe
We'll get a chance to do
Everything we wanted to

Breaking the Cherry

2008-02-27T17:11:00.000-05:00

My livejournal was getting crowded. It's still there, but I wanted something that I could add to Will's growing circle. So yeah, *waves* I'll try to keep this updated daily. I tend to write alot of poetry, and I'm always working on a novel or something. Poetry is just an easy way to fill in the gaps, and more often than not a more eloquent way to share feelings. I love mixtapes...or mix cds..whatever you want to call them. So maybe I'll post virtual mixtapes. No mp3s for now, but if you're so inclined download them yourself. I encourage independence.